September 13 - Not Feeling Good

Good morning, everyone. Except that for me, it isn't really.

I am not feeling good about my life right now. Intensely not feeling good. I feel like I have wasted all of my time. I feel like I have no future. I feel like I missed my entire youth. I missed adventure, I missed love, I missed fun and excitement and responsibility. I missed all of it, and I can never get it back. It was the only chance I had, and I missed it. I missed it for good.

Everything just seems so wrong right now. Everything seems so empty and so useless and I don't know what to do.

I think I am going to go crawl into my bed and curl up and listen to music very loudly and possibly cry a little bit. And I shall return tomorrow and try not to tell you all about it, but we'll see.

Come to think of it, I may be back later today too.

In case anyone is wondering what brought this all to the surface, it is an amazing song called Young Blood by The Naked & Famous.

Edit: Two things. First is that I just realized blogger says I posted this at 11:50 even though when I posted it, it was at least 10 or 15 minutes past midnight. Hmmmmmm.

Second thing is that I wrote a song at work today (basically just kept singing the chorus to myself for an hour, and of course couldn't remember the tune when I got home) and I just finished up the lyrics and posted them on my tumblr, link to that in the author description section in the sidebar.

I lied, there's a third thing - so far in September five of my post titles have contained the word "fail." I guess I'm not as creative as I would like to think.