So I've had another birthday, two months ago. Which means this blog has been going for two years (and I use the term "going" incredibly loosely), and that is kind of insane. My job keeps getting progressively worse and it's looking like I will have to quit and flee to a new city yet again. Also I do not have internet access for like the fifth time in the past year, so that probably contributes somewhat to the infrequent updates. But also I am just depressed and not that interesting.
One of my friends is staying with me now, looking for work/a place to live. He is actually sleeping on the floor next to my super thin and weirdly shaped mattress. Or at least trying to sleep, I'm not sure how well he is managing it with me rudely typing and leaving my laptop open to cast light all over the place, but I just felt an inexplicable urge to post an update. Sorry, friend.
I've decided that I really need to live somewhere a bit gayer. I certainly haven't gained any interest in hooking up with a new guy every weekend or anything of that sort, but it would just b nice to be able to finally find someone I can relate to and all that nifty sparkly stuff. It's silly because, despite my eagerness to end my state of crushing loneliness, I still cannot get over myself and stop being so picky.
Umm, let's see. Something that I haven't actually talked about nine hundred times already. I bought Pokemon Black2 and Pokemon White2, both on the day they were released, and I have beaten most of White2. I got my team members all bred and prepared for my Black2 game and then haven't bothered to train them at all, or even trade them into the right game. But my team for White2 was Emboar, Samurott, Serperior, Excadrill, Unfezant, aaaaand... someone else. Oh yes, Galvantula. It was kind of a challenging setup to have at some points, but for the most part it worked out well. I managed to beat the Elite 4 on the second try (I never beat them on the first because I get impatient at the end and don't train my team properly).
Oh I've also bought a bunch of new music lately.
Foster the People - Torches (album) - quite satisfactory.
Katy Perry - Teenage Dream, The Complete Collection - quite bad, except for Peacock.
Ke$ha - I Am the Dance Commander + I Command You to Dance (Remix album) - alright, most of the remixes are boring
Ke$ha - Die Young (single) - 300x better than the remix album
Dragonette - Body Parts - Definitely my favourite of the recent purchases
Carly Rae Jepsen - Kiss - Fairly decent, even the song featuring Justin Bieber, surprisingly
Owl City - The Midsummer Station - I actually don't know how I feel about this one, I still haven't managed to give it a proper listen. But it seems alright so far.
And I guess that's it. I haven't actually bought it, but Electra Heart by Marina + The Diamonds is also extremely good.
I deleted my main Facebook account as well, and now I just use my little alter-ego one because I was sick of interacting with tons of people, many of which I barely know in the first place, as a false person.
I`ve read a couple books, and I actually started a book review blog that never made it very far. Partly because of the frequently disappearing internet connection, but also part because I`ve been getting next to no time off of work for the past couple months which kind of puts a damper on the process. I have many many books I wish to read in the near future, however.
I am tired and my body hurts and my mind is getting into that wonky/flimsy sort of state, so I'm going to go to bed.
What has happened since October? Are things better?
ReplyDeleteI am right there with ya on the facebook thing. Haven't been on my account in decades.
If you're feeling depressed, are you talking with people? It's supposed to help if you either find someone to rant to, or journal it all out for yourself. I've been told to make a list of all the small good things that happen each day, sometimes it makes me feel better. Also, getting sunshine actually improves mood! With spring arriving, the sun will be back!
I wouldn't pack up and move drastically just to find someone. Then again, I am neither gay nor looking for love, you know yourself best.
And boy do we have different music tastes! Haha, I've really liked Ladyhawke - I am a Witch lately though, if you want to go check it out on YT. Also, if you can find "The Doors: Texas Radio and the Big Beat/Love me Two Times" live version, it's really, really good.
I have rambled. I hope you are well. Write back soon!
Not much has happened since then, really. I've barely been existing at all. I haven't been talking to any of my friends, I deleted my account on the only forum I was going to. I ended up having to quit my job and move back in with my parents because I got kicked out of my other place with less than a week's notice (which wasn't really my fault, someone called child services on the people I was staying with and said there was too many people living in the house and child services told them I had to leave by the end of the week).
ReplyDeleteI've been looking for a new job/apartment but I've had no luck and I have no money. I've been here since December and I'm sure my parents can't wait until I leave, they barely have enough money to keep themselves going and my mom is working 6 days a week every second week, and 5 the other weeks, plus 8 hours of overtime every week.
I haven't really tried keeping a journal for a while because every time I start writing everything out I just annoy myself >.< And I just feel like I annoy all my friends which is why I haven't been talking to them either.
But I'm not very depressed >.< Kind of indifferent, but I really just wish I knew where to go from here.
I hope you're still doing alright.
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