So it's only been, what? Four months since I updated this? Five? Probably not more than six. Uhhh... maybe more than six.
Shit. My bad. So, life. I've been having some of that. One of my best friends moved to Vancouver, and I am still in Ontario. And if anyone is reading this who is not so familiar with Canadian geography, that is half way across the country. So that's distressing. But he's been socializing like a champ so I'm sure he'll be fine.
I have not been socializing like a champ, really. I've had some interesting experiences. I went on a road trip with two girls from work a couple months ago, had an absolute blast. Seriously one of the best days of my entire life. We drove about four hours south to the "big city" (but not Toronto, we didn't have that kind of time on our hands) and went to an all you can eat restaurant and had an awesome time. My friend, who hadn't moved yet at that point, joined us, as well as another girl who worked with us before moving back home for the summer.
My grandmother has been in the hospital since January, which I did mention when I updated around that time. She hasn't been released yet, she's been having lots of problems. Originally she was in to have a cancerous tumor removed, but after the operation her stomach split open and it has been an incredibly long and painful eight months for her. They are hoping to be able to send her home soon and I am so so excited.
In my extremely few posts so far this year I have no doubt mentioned that work was not going so great for me. It actually did start going really well for a while there, I have made some good friends. But now we have new owners and everything is kind of going down the crapper.
I am, however, still single. That hasn't changed. At present I'm not that bugged about it, I think I've finally learned to just accept that it's gonna be like this for the majority of my life. Whatever. I like my alone time anyway.
I really want to quit my job and move somewhere new. I want to do something that doesn't drive me insane, and live as my big queer self. But I can get into that more later. Right now I'm just meaning to kind of sum things up. I am just feeling very compressed lately. I feel like I am stuck in this double life and stuck in this crappy job and stuck in this crappy town. I want to take control of my life, but surprise! You pretty much can't do jack squat without a big pile of money to back you up. Which I haven't really got. I have been trying to save up ever since I started working but things just keep breaking down and I just keep screwing myself over.
I wonder why I do that. Perhaps I'm just afraid of freedom.
