October 31st - And then I didn't

So I've had another birthday, two months ago. Which means this blog has been going for two years (and I use the term "going" incredibly loosely), and that is kind of insane. My job keeps getting progressively worse and it's looking like I will have to quit and flee to a new city yet again. Also I do not have internet access for like the fifth time in the past year, so that probably contributes somewhat to the infrequent updates. But also I am just depressed and not that interesting.

One of my friends is staying with me now, looking for work/a place to live. He is actually sleeping on the floor next to my super thin and weirdly shaped mattress. Or at least trying to sleep, I'm not sure how well he is managing it with me rudely typing and leaving my laptop open to cast light all over the place, but I just felt an inexplicable urge to post an update. Sorry, friend.

I've decided that I really need to live somewhere a bit gayer. I certainly haven't gained any interest in hooking up with a new guy every weekend or anything of that sort, but it would just b nice to be able to finally find someone I can relate to and all that nifty sparkly stuff. It's silly because, despite my eagerness to end my state of crushing loneliness, I still cannot get over myself and stop being so picky.

Umm, let's see. Something that I haven't actually talked about nine hundred times already. I bought Pokemon Black2 and Pokemon White2, both on the day they were released, and I have beaten most of White2. I got my team members all bred and prepared for my Black2 game and then haven't bothered to train them at all, or even trade them into the right game. But my team for White2 was Emboar, Samurott, Serperior, Excadrill, Unfezant, aaaaand... someone else. Oh yes, Galvantula. It was kind of a challenging setup to have at some points, but for the most part it worked out well. I managed to beat the Elite 4 on the second try (I never beat them on the first because I get impatient at the end and don't train my team properly).

Oh I've also bought a bunch of new music lately.

Foster the People - Torches (album) - quite satisfactory.
Katy Perry - Teenage Dream, The Complete Collection - quite bad, except for Peacock.
Ke$ha - I Am the Dance Commander + I Command You to Dance (Remix album) - alright, most of the remixes are boring
Ke$ha - Die Young (single) - 300x better than the remix album
Dragonette - Body Parts - Definitely my favourite of the recent purchases
Carly Rae Jepsen - Kiss - Fairly decent, even the song featuring Justin Bieber, surprisingly
Owl City - The Midsummer Station - I actually don't know how I feel about this one, I still haven't managed to give it a proper listen. But it seems alright so far.

And I guess that's it. I haven't actually bought it, but Electra Heart by Marina + The Diamonds is also extremely good.

I deleted my main Facebook account as well, and now I just use my little alter-ego one because I was sick of interacting with tons of people, many of which I barely know in the first place, as a false person.

I`ve read a couple books, and I actually started a book review blog that never made it very far. Partly because of the frequently disappearing internet connection, but also part because I`ve been getting next to no time off of work for the past couple months which kind of puts a damper on the process. I have many many books I wish to read in the near future, however.

I am tired and my body hurts and my mind is getting into that wonky/flimsy sort of state, so I'm going to go to bed.

August 07th - Holy Cracker Crap

So it's only been, what? Four months since I updated this? Five? Probably not more than six. Uhhh... maybe more than six.

Shit. My bad. So, life. I've been having some of that. One of my best friends moved to Vancouver, and I am still in Ontario. And if anyone is reading this who is not so familiar with Canadian geography, that is half way across the country. So that's distressing. But he's been socializing like a champ so I'm sure he'll be fine.

I have not been socializing like a champ, really. I've had some interesting experiences. I went on a road trip with two girls from work a couple months ago, had an absolute blast. Seriously one of the best days of my entire life. We drove about four hours south to the "big city" (but not Toronto, we didn't have that kind of time on our hands) and went to an all you can eat restaurant and had an awesome time. My friend, who hadn't moved yet at that point, joined us, as well as another girl who worked with us before moving back home for the summer.

My grandmother has been in the hospital since January, which I did mention when I updated around that time. She hasn't been released yet, she's been having lots of problems. Originally she was in to have a cancerous tumor removed, but after the operation her stomach split open and it has been an incredibly long and painful eight months for her. They are hoping to be able to send her home soon and I am so so excited.

In my extremely few posts so far this year I have no doubt mentioned that work was not going so great for me. It actually did start going really well for a while there, I have made some good friends. But now we have new owners and everything is kind of going down the crapper.

I am, however, still single. That hasn't changed. At present I'm not that bugged about it, I think I've finally learned to just accept that it's gonna be like this for the majority of my life. Whatever. I like my alone time anyway.

I really want to quit my job and move somewhere new. I want to do something that doesn't drive me insane, and live as my big queer self. But I can get into that more later. Right now I'm just meaning to kind of sum things up. I am just feeling very compressed lately. I feel like I am stuck in this double life and stuck in this crappy job and stuck in this crappy town. I want to take control of my life, but surprise! You pretty much can't do jack squat without a big pile of money to back you up. Which I haven't really got. I have been trying to save up ever since I started working but things just keep breaking down and I just keep screwing myself over.

I wonder why I do that. Perhaps I'm just afraid of freedom.

February 11 - Much For Regret

I haven't got much for regret
And I haven't got much for pride
But I've got a thirst for a kingdom
That a queen could hide behind

I've known a little bit of romance
I've known a little bit of lust
And I've got a thirst for a kingdom
That my heart could hide behind

Tell me what you see in the sunlight
Tell me what you see in the shadows
Tell me what you see in the window
That you've sealed against the stars

Tell me what you see when you're dreaming
Tell me what you see when you're scared
Tell me what you wish they would say to you
When you wanna be someone else

I've known a pretty simple life
I've known some pretty simple people
And I've fallen into some mazes, and I
Still don't know how I got out

I haven't got much excitement
But I've got a hell of a lot of indifference
I've got a lot of amazing ideas
But I've got too much time to care

Tell me what you see in the empty room
Tell me what you see in the corner
Tell me what's hiding under the bed
Waiting to tear apart your heart

Tell me what you see when you're dreaming
Tell me what you see when you're scared
Tell me what you wish they would say to you
When you wanna be someone else

Tell me that it all makes no difference
But I'm gonna keep breathing in
Tell me it doesn't make sense in the end
But I wasn't curious anyway...

Tell me what you see in the sunlight
Tell me what you see in the shadows
Tell me what's hiding under the surface
Waiting to tear apart your heart

Tell me what you see when you're dreaming
Tell me what you see when you're scared
Tell me what you wish they would say to you
When you wanna be someone else

January 21st - Night Time

So, it has been almost a year since my return to the realm of singularity. Seeing as how that was pretty much my first real relationship and it didn't even last 6 months you'd figure I'd be kind of used to it by now. And I guess I am, sort of. It's not really a big deal most of the time. Kind of unfortunate some other times.

Then there are times when I wake up in the middle of the night and am so lonely I can't get back to sleep, which is especially unfortunate when I have to be up for work in a few hours. And I have a bad habit of going to bed at the exact moment I need to go to bed to get 8 hours of sleep, if not later. I very rarely leave myself any recovery time.

I just want this feeling to stop. I want the emptiness to go away, I want to be special to someone, I want to have someone to share my life with. It doesn't have to be for the rest of my life. Not yet. I just want there to be something there. I almost wish I could be one of those people who just has a bunch of random sex with strangers and able to get by on that. But I really don't think I could be.

Which is sort of too bad, seeing as how I don't have a heck of a lot to offer from a relationship perspective, really. But it's almost 3am now and I have to get up at 7. So I'm not going to get into it any more than that.

January 4th - I Did All Of The Freaking

So work. That is a thing I have been doing a lot of lately, which is good because that means I am making money. Money which I get very little of because I have debts to repay. So many debts. Like, two. I also need to buy a wii and a ps3 at some point. Not a 3ds though, those are rubbish.

I am kind of surprised that my boss hasn't punched me in the face by now, I manage to screw up every little thing at least once. Most of the time it's more than once. But in the past month we've lost three employees, so she probably feels like she is stuck with me. I must frustrate her to no end, though, and that is not a nice feeling.

My grandmother is in the hospital at present, she had a very long surgery yesterday and lost a lot of blood in the process, but she is doing alright and is stable now. My sister and her boyfriend and I are stopping by the hospital tomorrow to see her.

Other than those pleasant details there isn't a whole lot happening with me. I've been playing The World Ends With You again. Been trying to write, it hasn't been working out too well. Well. Not too well from a story perspective, I've written a bit of lyrics. Been listening to a lot of Florence + The Machine lately, so I think that really helps.

I've also been working on another little project of mine (it isn't really a "little" project, actually) and that is... well, it's something. I hesitate to call what I've been doing "progress" but there's certainly more of it than what I started with. So that's good I guess?

And that's all for now.

December 8 - Me My New Job

I am leaving to start my first shift at my new work in about 30 minutes, but we're not going to talk about that right now.

I have sleeping troubles lately. Kind of weird sleeping troubles. Like, I do not have any trouble getting near the point of falling asleep initially. But whenever I get juuust to the point where I would fall asleep, I suddenly just violently twitch awake. And I'm not kidding. My body just spasms itself out of near-sleep and then I lay awake, wide awake, for at least a full hour afterward. And this happens every single night.

There are nights where I have gone to bed at 10pm and been up till 5am. And before the twitching started, I would just fall asleep for maybe 30 minutes and then be completely unable to sleep for the rest of the night. Which actually didn't result in me being that tired during the day time... so that was nice.

Also it's not really a "new" album anymore, but I love love love Sarah McLachlan's new album "Laws of Illusion." It is incredible. Now if I could just find a person to be in love with, that would be great.

October 27 - Bleargh

So I have not updated in almost a month agaaaaaain. I don't really have much to talk about as of yet. At least not anything positive. I am having a bit of trouble... existing. It is mainly due to a severe lack of money, but there are a few other things too.

On another note, it is NaNoWriMo soon. I dunno if I am going to attempt anything this year. Last year was a bit of a failure for me. But we'll see, maybe it will help take my mind off things. Or just add another thing to stress about.

Toodloo for now!

October 10 (Part 1) - This is something that happened

I just sent my roommate a Facebook message telling him he's a bitchin looking boy. Is there somehting wrong with me?

Probably.

September 17 - Well then

So, a year has come and gone (actually I am very nearly a month late with this update) and instead of having figured out a bunch of things like I had hoped, I believe I am actually a bit worse off. But I'm not going to go on a lengthy tirade about all of my individual woes, instead I am going to talk about something else (but also depressing): starving children!

A couple months ago I saw this little blurb circulating around Facebook statuses that went something to the effect of "Why is it that we are constantly asked to come to the aid of starving children in Africa when there are kids going hungry on our own streets. Post this if you agree" and I was kind of... put off by this when I read it, and so after thinking on it some more I have decided to offer my personal response. Beginning with a metaphor!

Imagine you are a paramedic, and the powers that be in the universe have led you into an alleyway. With you, you have all of the tools with which to perform a wide variety of medical procedures, but no immediate means with which to call for assistance. In the alley with you are two children, both injured. The first one is your own child, and their arm is broken. They are in pain, uncomfortable, but will most definitely survive without your immediate attention. The second child is unknown to you, but they are severely injured and it is clear that they are going to die without immediate attention. Do you say to this second child "Gee, I really wish I could help you out but unfortunately you're not my child." If you would in fact say this, then I'm afraid I am going to say that I think you're kind of a jerk.

The fact is that children in third world country are brought to our attention so much more often because their need is more immediate and much more severe. There are many more of them. They do not have the abundance of fast food, of grocery stores, of (as non preferred as it obviously is) dumpsters over flowing with food. They have adults going blind, falling gravely ill, dying of diseases we can and do cure here without batting an eyelash.

I have been told that there is a child who dies of starvation somewhere in the world every three seconds. If you were to weigh the values, you would very likely discover that the children "here at home" are much less at risk. But if you are that concerned about children in your own country, why not donate clothes locally. Why not donate to local food drives, local fundraisers. If you think something should be done for them, then do something for them. But you don't have to help either or. It is quite possible to donate to both causes.

And alternatively, if you do not donate any food or money in the first place, then you really have no right to be complaining where it goes, do you?

August 15 - Blargh

So it's almost been a year since I started this. It went by pretty fast, I must admit.

I am still unemployed and broke and stressed, which sucks. But hopefully things won't be like that for too much longer.

One of my best friends was here visiting recently and that was wonderful. I was sad to see him go and now that I am in the house on my own I have been incredibly bored. I've done a bit of job hunting and otherwise mostly just been sleeping on the couch and eating junk food. I guess that doesn't sound too healthy, buuuut. I haven't really been feeling too healthy the past little while.

Um. What else. Oh yes, my computer died. It refuses to charge, I have tried several plugs on it, some of them from friends' computers that I know for sure work fine. So it is the computer that's the problem, not the chord. So that really sucks because I had a loooooot of stuff on there. Hopefully I'll be able to get it back somehow.

I'm still going through this patch of super loneliness. I feel like I'm going to spend my whole life this way. I look at myself and think "Of course no one wants to talk to me or get to know me, why would they." It tears me apart to not be close to anyone, to not have anyone to sleep next to or hug or just sit next to with my head on their shoulder or anything. I am starved for affection.

Aaaaand that's enough being miserable. But I don't really have anything else to talk about so that's also it for this post. I will be back... eventually.

July 24 - Opening The Dump

I have decided that I need a place to dump my ideas. Well, I already do that here, but I mean something else. Writing-related ideas. I do in fact have another blog besides this one, and as it turns out I've already dumped a bunch of stuff there in the past. So that's very good, I've got a ton of ideas and I have no idea what to do with them all, and so now I know.

The only problem with that is I will have to make my other blog private because I am paranoid and don't want people stealing my ideas >.> But that shouldn't really be a problem, no one goes there anyway. The last time I posted was August 15th 2010. I am happy that I am going to be continuing to use the blog instead of just leaving it to drift in the abyss that is the internet like I have done to dozens of forums and other things in the past.

Oh and also, no one has hired me yet and I have $10 in my bank account and I am kind of going crazy and my head is going to explode from all this stress and other bs.

But mainly I just wanted to talk about the writing thing.

July 18 - I'm Melting

It's so hooooot in here. And out there *points.* But mostly in here is what I'm concerned with.

I am making good progress on my current writing project. I like progress, progress is lovely. Chapter one of this project can be found here; https://docs.google.com/document/d/1znQThHI2IxkwHoY8PCpTiiUqtIAnGBqTf7gODffKYLs/edit?hl=en_US

(What? I'm allowed to plug, it's my blog! D: )

Also my roommate is making soup which is very exciting. I like soup.

Let's see, what else. I still haven't found a job yet which is depressing. A friend of mine printed off some resumes for me but I can't even take the bus over to her place to pick them ip because I'm broke. But hopefully I'll have those soon.

I wish I could just insta-complete my book and ship it off to a publisher and have them say "Yes, I love it! No editing at all is required for this piece of literature, off to the printers we go!" and then I become rich. But I really don't think anything any of the things in that list are going to happen, so. Too bad for me.

I started a new game in Pokemon this morning. My team this time around;
Bulbasaur, Doduo, Staryu, Growlithe. Eevee, Geodude.
I'm excited, because Starmie is one of my favourite Pokemon and I've never actually got to use one on my team before. Because you don't find them till really late and I'm lazy. And also I love Doduo because their attacks are insanely powerful. Last time I had one on my team I took out Sabrina's entire gym using nothing else.

In my next playthrough I really want to try using a Seel or a Shellder. I <3 water Pokemon.

Oh and what else. My roommate has got me watching Stargate Atlantis. I think we're on season 3 now, and we've been watching it for... not even a week.

Also our dishwasher ate a piece of my roommate's blender which means I cannot make delicious milkshakes anymore. TRAGEDY OF SHAESPEAREAN PROPORTIONS I ASSURE YOU.

Oh, and my gay son (who is a stuffed elephant I bought at the circus) now has his own Facebook account.

July 14 - Self-Made Karma

It's strange the things people put themselves through, and even stranger are some of the reasons they have for doing so.

For example;

I am aware that staying up all night tonight (for the second time in less than a week) and getting myself drunk (for the first time ever, for the record) will not erase the things I have done in my life that have upset people I care about. And yet, I am still going to do it because I feel like shit and I feel like it is a much better alternative to shoving forks in my eyes.

So now I am just waiting for my roommate to go to bed so I don't have to answer any complicated, awkward questions.

For the record, amount of alcohol in my body: 0. Amount of headache in my body: 500

This is going to be the best night of my life, something tells me.

July 09 - Harbinger of Doom

So, I had a visitor today.

And by "I had a visitor" I of course mean "evil incarnate materialized within my house and tried to chew off my head and suck out my soul through my bone marrow" but that's kind of a given, right?

Here is a picture.

Of course, my reaction when I saw this thing flying at my face was to drop my book, run into the kitchen, hiding and swearing - which, as it happens, are the two most basic primal instincts in regards to how to deal with SHEER TERROR

So, after a few moments the soldier of Satan disappeared so I very cautiously came back into the living room and sat down, at which point I heard the accursed thing buzzing rather angrily behind me. I hoped that it would be stuck behind the curtain for a few minutes at least, and resumed nibbling on my delicious (yet by this point room temperature) sandwich. At which point it appeared from behind the curtain, about half a foot from my face, and tried to eat me again.

After hiding in the kitchen and swearing some more, I ripped up a piece of cardboard and through several minutes of frantic curtain-slapping and horrified banshee cries, I managed to trap the thing in between our glass sliding door and the screen door behind it, and even got the screen door open a bit so it could find its way outside, which it eventually did.

Hopefully when it gets back to its nest of terror-beasts it will remember my benevolence and not the fact that I, y'know, was shrieking and swearing at it for a good half hour and swatting at it with a strip of cardboard.

Oh also, I managed to twist my neck funny trying to watch my assailant, and I had this excruciating pain between my shoulder blade for a little while. But I think my bones have re-settled back to their original positions so that's nice.

July 8 - In Wonderland

So this is going to be my Halloween costume;

http://images.buycostumes.com/mgen/merchandiser/68450.jpg?is=375,375,0xffffff

Except instead of the boots I will have these;

http://ep.yimg.com/ca/I/yhst-54101187326451_2166_16893138

And so that is very exciting. Now I just need to get a job and save up like $200. Just note that I'm adding in roughly $50 to the actual prices for shipping.

I want to play Baten Kaitos but that game is just so much woooork. Making the enemies and the puzzles and whatnot in a game challenging is all fine and dandy, but the entire game is pretty much like a puzzle. Healing items in your inventory turn rotten and useless over time, which is particularly frustrating because in order to get the weapons you need to stand a chance against the enemies you have to do extensive grinding. Fights don't reward you with money, you have to take pictures of your enemy - and since the game uses a card-based fighting system, that means you have to actually wait for the camera card to appear in your hand first.

Then on top of that it's hard to tell how much money you'll get. If you use certain spells, the picture will be too light or too dark, or it could be blurry. And speaking of certain spells, if you use opposing elements they will cancel each other out and your attacks won't do any damage - which again, is something extremely annoying with a card-based fighting system, because there's no controlling what you'll get in your hand.

Siiiiigh.

I don't think I'm going to play Baten Kaitos today.

July 04 - Hello... my name is Gwen...

Holy shit, it's been almost a month again. My bad.

So other than my internet being a piece of poop, there has been much excitement going on. I don't really remember if I mentioned this in the last post I wrote or if it had even happened yet, but I went on my first date with a boy a few weeks ago. I don't think either of us were really that successful at the dating thing. But I'm not going to concern my self with elaborating on that particular experience.

I had one of my best friends here for a visit for a week and a half, though she was really more visiting my roommate than me, because they had been talking on msn for nearly two years, but hadn't met yet. So that was nice. While she was here we played through God of War 3 and American McGee's Alice, and started playing Alice: Madness Returns but we didn't get it finished before she had to go home.

I went to a gay bar for the first time ever and didn't drink anything because I am broke (and not that much of a drinker to begin with) but I did make my friend dance to Man, I Feel Like A Woman by Shania Twain with me. Oh and I saw a guy's penis by accident. And by accident I mean that he purposely exposed himself in public but I didn't particularly want to see it.

I am still working on a trilogy I have been plotting out for a while now, though I really need to sit my ass down and write a few good chapters instead of just jotting down a hundred unconnected plot points all over my notebook.

I am reading the Circle of Magic series by Tamora Pierce, I am nearly done the third book in the set of four. I quite enjoy them, though there is a whole lot of sewing instruments mentioned in the books which is something I know nothing about, so it is rather difficult for me to envision some parts.

I went to Toronto and saw the pride parade which was fucking loooooong, and my arms got sunburned which is the first time I have been burnt (by the sun specifically) ever in my life. So that's exciting.

I am going job hunting tomorrow because I am broke and stressed and if I do not find a job in the next like... week or so, my life is more or less next to over. Probably (possibly). So employment would be nice.

What else is there? I don't know. Why am I asking you, you don't know either!

I was going to go on a biiiiig huuuuge rant type thing about how annoyed I am with people constantly telling me to do this, or do that, or act this way, or stop this, or try this, or I could be happy if I did this, or my life would be better if I did this, because that just fucking pisses me off immensely. It is my largest pet peeve. It makes me want to stab everything and everyone within a five mile radius. But I think I'll just leave it at that because I'm tired and lazy and want to go read and write.

123go

June 08 - Caught In A Life

I am slowly going crazy, 1 2 3 4 5 6 switch
Crazy going slowly am I, 6 5 4 3 2 1 switch

- The going crazy song

Soon enough you're going to think of me
And how I used to be
Me, talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong, with me
Out of all the hours thinking;
"Somehow, I've lost my mind"

- Unwell by Matchbox 20


In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch the purple sky fly over me

- Imagine by Evanescence


I see them move in the shadows
Just wanna blend in
Always changing their colours
Like chameleons
Isn't anybody comfortable
In their own skin?

- Unusual by Kate Voegele


We all begin with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believe that we could change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I've held so dear

- Fallen by Sarah McLachlan


Today, today
You say it's useless
Just a couple figures
For the different uses
Here it comes, the sum
Of all excuses
Where did you think
I got these bruises

- Frayed by The Naked and Famous


Once in a while
I act like a child
To feel like a kid again
It gets like a prison
In the body I'm living in
Cuz everyone's watching
And quick to start talking
I'm losing my innocence
Wish I were a little girl
Without the weight of the world

It would be nice
To start over again
Before we were men
I'd give, I'd bend
Let's play pretend

- Pretend by Lights


If I gave you my life, would you
Let it slip, through hands
Like water in the desert
If I gave you my heart
In the deep of the night
Would you hold it, like a candle
Giving you light

- If I Gave You My Life by Justin Nozuka


So what can I say, what can I do
I'm running in circles, save me
It's holding me down, what about you?
What can I say?
I'm caught in the life
I'm running in circles, save me
It's holding me down, what about you?
I'm caught in the life

- Caught In A Life by Donkeyboy


Soo. I have a couple things on my mind.

May 27 - Whitwall

Tomorrow I shall begin writing a book.

And that is pretty much it.

May 19 - William

Hello, solar system

My internet connection is still really poopy. I have been doing so much video games lately, I am really just sick of it. Oh and eating. I really need to stop that too. But I think I have been getting a good deal more exercise? Which by the way, is a word I can never spell correctly on the first go. I dunno why, my brain just does not retain the proper spelling. Also a fun fact, I cannot say the word 'rural' out loud.

A lovely lady by the name of Kate Voegele released her third album 'Gravity Happens' yesterday and every single song is fantastic. Though I have probably listened to the whole thing about 10 times today, so I am taking a bit of a break by listening to her second album "A Fine Mess" which also is fantastic. Every song.

Also a little less than a week ago, I created another blog for my alter ego William Gulliver, and a friend and I are working on the possibility of creating some of William's books for real (my friend helping by drawing pictures)

It is a writing blog, so please check it out if you are interested http://wgwritey.blogspot.com/
and let me know what you think. And if you want to participate, send him an e-mail at wm_gulliver@hotmail.ca

There are three main things you can e-mail him;
- A request for a topic to write on for "Wish It" Wednesdays
- An answer for the current question he is asking (found under "William's Want-To-Knows)
- Or just an e-mail telling him how brilliant he is 8D (not that he doesn't know already)

I dunno if there is really too much else to write here for today. On a more sensitive personal note, I have been super duper lonely as of late. Yaaaay!

See you :)

May 10 - F-i-t-e

I haven't updated in a while, but I moved into my new place this past Sunday. It's rather wonderful except for the fact that I lost my notebooks along the way. As in, lost them forever because they blew out of the truck and we couldn't pull over. There was a LOT of stuff written in there that meant a lot to me, I am very upset over it. But there isn't really anything I can do about it. Hopefully no one finds them and decides to steal all my writing ideas, because key points for pretty much every single story I have worked on in the past year were in there.
It also sucks because one of the notebooks and a bunch of the pens in with them were given to me as a going away present by one of the women I worked with, so I feel very bad for losing them.

Bleeeeh.

Having a new house is nice and all but it's also really boooooring. Our internet connection also kind of sucks at the moment but we are going to look into doing something about that soonish.

Not really sure what else to write. But I'm not dead, isn't that nice?