So it's almost been a year since I started this. It went by pretty fast, I must admit.
I am still unemployed and broke and stressed, which sucks. But hopefully things won't be like that for too much longer.
One of my best friends was here visiting recently and that was wonderful. I was sad to see him go and now that I am in the house on my own I have been incredibly bored. I've done a bit of job hunting and otherwise mostly just been sleeping on the couch and eating junk food. I guess that doesn't sound too healthy, buuuut. I haven't really been feeling too healthy the past little while.
Um. What else. Oh yes, my computer died. It refuses to charge, I have tried several plugs on it, some of them from friends' computers that I know for sure work fine. So it is the computer that's the problem, not the chord. So that really sucks because I had a loooooot of stuff on there. Hopefully I'll be able to get it back somehow.
I'm still going through this patch of super loneliness. I feel like I'm going to spend my whole life this way. I look at myself and think "Of course no one wants to talk to me or get to know me, why would they." It tears me apart to not be close to anyone, to not have anyone to sleep next to or hug or just sit next to with my head on their shoulder or anything. I am starved for affection.
Aaaaand that's enough being miserable. But I don't really have anything else to talk about so that's also it for this post. I will be back... eventually.
i really hope you have luck finding a job soon, and that your computer gets better. i dont know how to put it in words, but im familiar with the loneliness thing and i certainly hope you realize you mean a lot to other people. your friends are all friends with you because they genuinely think you are a cool, special person. they wouldn't hang out with you otherwise. everyone you meet and have worked with in the past know you, and probably thought about where you are now. you have these writing ideas (lots of them by the sound of it) and they are unique to you. tons of other kids and people would love to read about them one day. the most important thing right now is to stick with your friends and know that you yourself are a pretty cool, badass, awesome person, and that you have plenty of time to do anything you like. (sorry for the out of character comment)
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