So cold. So tired. Feel so so sick.
Very, very lonely.
Happy Halloween.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
October 29 - Hachoo
So yesterday, I was watching Death Note with a friend and on the site we were watching it, an advertisement pops up before the video plays. Mine happened to be a beer commercial, and let's just say I was entirely underwhelmed. And that it was stupid. I believe my exact thoughts were something along the lines of "Fucking beer commercials, no wonder I don't drink!"
Today at work some coworkers were discussing the lewd attire commonly assiciated with high-school girls at Halloween. I've never been one to deny that lots of girls readily take advantage of the holiday as a free-for-all slutfest but I thought, maybe there's a bit more to it than that. I mean, it's pretty obvious from that conversation and others I've heard that girls that age are 100% expected to dress like sluts, like that's their only option or something. And of course everyone thinks badly of them for doing it, even though it's exactly what they've decided is going to happen.
Anyhoo, I was just thinking. We all know that is sucks to be a teenager, and I'm not going to pretend that being a girl doesn't bring on a loooot of extra baggage centered around aesthetics. You know the saying "no publicity is bad publicity"? Well I figure maybe it's sort of like that. In a word where girls are pressured so hard to be so thin, to be so drop dead gorgeous, to be so this and so that, I figure it's not hard for some of them (or hell ALL of them) to feel invisible at times. And we've seen plenty of proof that this kind of clothing can garner attention. So even if people are calling them sluts and whatever else, at least someone saw them right?
Maybe I'm 100% wrong on this, but being right isn't really important here. It was just an interesting train of thought that I wanted to get down. Maybe teenagers really are just mindless and sex-crazed and whatever else, but having been one not too long ago I can say that I think a lot of people don't really recall just how much stuff goes on inside your head during those years. So here's hoping I never forget.
Also I finally started writing my Pokemon fan fiction. Yay prologue!
Today at work some coworkers were discussing the lewd attire commonly assiciated with high-school girls at Halloween. I've never been one to deny that lots of girls readily take advantage of the holiday as a free-for-all slutfest but I thought, maybe there's a bit more to it than that. I mean, it's pretty obvious from that conversation and others I've heard that girls that age are 100% expected to dress like sluts, like that's their only option or something. And of course everyone thinks badly of them for doing it, even though it's exactly what they've decided is going to happen.
Anyhoo, I was just thinking. We all know that is sucks to be a teenager, and I'm not going to pretend that being a girl doesn't bring on a loooot of extra baggage centered around aesthetics. You know the saying "no publicity is bad publicity"? Well I figure maybe it's sort of like that. In a word where girls are pressured so hard to be so thin, to be so drop dead gorgeous, to be so this and so that, I figure it's not hard for some of them (or hell ALL of them) to feel invisible at times. And we've seen plenty of proof that this kind of clothing can garner attention. So even if people are calling them sluts and whatever else, at least someone saw them right?
Maybe I'm 100% wrong on this, but being right isn't really important here. It was just an interesting train of thought that I wanted to get down. Maybe teenagers really are just mindless and sex-crazed and whatever else, but having been one not too long ago I can say that I think a lot of people don't really recall just how much stuff goes on inside your head during those years. So here's hoping I never forget.
Also I finally started writing my Pokemon fan fiction. Yay prologue!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
October 27th - Ellipses
So I kind of have not updated this in four days. Still haven't heard from any of those people who had said that they'd help keep me on track >.>
Admittedly, this project was kind of doomed to failure from the beginning... because it was a project of mine, after all. I just don't really feel any need to be updating regularly. The only two people to comment in over a month were two good friends of mine and that was pretty much exclusively because I sent them a link on Facebook to a certain post. Maybe I stopped being interesting after the first week week. Maybe it's because I met a lot of the initial supporters at a forum and I don't really post there anymore.
On a bit of a side tangent regarding that; I'm a member of like a hundred forums but I'm not really a frequent member at any of them because any time I post I generally get ignored by the entire community. So I end up feeling like I'm wasting my time and feeling rejected repeatedly on top of it. I probably get ignored because I'm pretty much a failure at being social, but oh well.
Or maybe everyone is just pre-occupied with work or school. Or maybe a hundred other possibilities.
In any case. There's a chance that this could be my last post. I'll probably end up coming back, maybe tomorrow, maybe a week from now. But right now I just don't have the energy to be prolonging yet another failure.
Admittedly, this project was kind of doomed to failure from the beginning... because it was a project of mine, after all. I just don't really feel any need to be updating regularly. The only two people to comment in over a month were two good friends of mine and that was pretty much exclusively because I sent them a link on Facebook to a certain post. Maybe I stopped being interesting after the first week week. Maybe it's because I met a lot of the initial supporters at a forum and I don't really post there anymore.
On a bit of a side tangent regarding that; I'm a member of like a hundred forums but I'm not really a frequent member at any of them because any time I post I generally get ignored by the entire community. So I end up feeling like I'm wasting my time and feeling rejected repeatedly on top of it. I probably get ignored because I'm pretty much a failure at being social, but oh well.
Or maybe everyone is just pre-occupied with work or school. Or maybe a hundred other possibilities.
In any case. There's a chance that this could be my last post. I'll probably end up coming back, maybe tomorrow, maybe a week from now. But right now I just don't have the energy to be prolonging yet another failure.
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